The ground below is a black sea full of stars,
little constellations that signify nothing
but mapped isolation. I blink back.
little constellations that signify nothing
but mapped isolation. I blink back.
I understand. I, too, am a dying star,
caught in the vast permanence of blackness
that endlessly receives our offerings of light.
The night sky is a shrine. Its ancient relics
foreshadow what fossils we might also become.
caught in the vast permanence of blackness
that endlessly receives our offerings of light.
The night sky is a shrine. Its ancient relics
foreshadow what fossils we might also become.
From my vantage point, I could be a priest
for all those little helpless ones gathered below.
But I know no incantation,
no rite, except my own
ritual of longing. I imagine I chant holy words
that I could never know, but by some dark mystery.
The little lights pour out their responsorial halos
onto the concrete below them.
for all those little helpless ones gathered below.
But I know no incantation,
no rite, except my own
ritual of longing. I imagine I chant holy words
that I could never know, but by some dark mystery.
The little lights pour out their responsorial halos
onto the concrete below them.
They look like Christmas tree lights,
glistening and ornamental, magical,
and dim. Clustered together, they must think they are
lighting the sky.
glistening and ornamental, magical,
and dim. Clustered together, they must think they are
lighting the sky.
BY ART OR BY PHYSICS
By its artificial and mysterious motion
the clock beside my bed spins the world around, and flings
another day into oblivion.
the clock beside my bed spins the world around, and flings
another day into oblivion.
And I, by every power I can summon,
gape at the white space projected on the ceiling
from the empty diary beside my bed.
gape at the white space projected on the ceiling
from the empty diary beside my bed.
This is no canvas I could paint my dreams on.
This is a nothingness I know too well: the cold, white sum
of my disordered colors, my spoiled palette,
This is a nothingness I know too well: the cold, white sum
of my disordered colors, my spoiled palette,
Memories and passions absorbed and lost
deep in my blood –
deep in my blood –
Deep,
Where by automatic and mysterious tic, the clock
inside my chest pulls up another sun.
inside my chest pulls up another sun.
Both of these are from my third book, To Kiss the Sun and Mean It. (I've discussed before where that title comes from.)
"To
Rule the Night" was, as should be obvious, written on a plane. I was
returning from a friend's wedding in Atlanta, but that's not relevant at
all. It was night. I'm not sure what else I can say that the poem
doesn't say better. It's not about anything in particular. It's typical
of my writing process, though - taking in an image and letting it
resonate with a store of other images and moods and seeing what comes
from the juxtaposition.
"By
Art or By Physics" revisits the theme of white space... and if you've
ever felt like your life is overfilled with a whole lot of nothing, you
probably understand. White, of course, is—when speaking of pigments—the
absence of color; when speaking of light, it's the presence of all
colors. I combined those facts, as a palette wouldn't contain light
(unless you're on the computer, I suppose). That double meaning of white
means that 1+1+1+1+1+1 (ad infinitum) can still equal zero. "The
cold white sum of my disordered palette" can be a blank page. Good
thing I paid attention to my color theory in school.
As Betty White said on the Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson
(8:15-8:40 on that clip for context), "I didn't do anything to get to
be 91, it just happened!" The clock ticks, the heart tics, and time
accrues.
The title refers to those two central images, one being art and the other, physics.
Sylvia
Plath got me hooked on the word "gape." I'm pretty sure it was among
her favorite words, she uses it so much. It's a good one, isn't it?
Mouths can gape, caverns and canyons can gape, the abyss can gape, empty
spaces can gape, and so can wounds. It's a useful word.
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